Happy New Year!
“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.” (Mark Twain)
After being suspended a few times on Twitter in 2022 (and feeling angry whenever I wasn’t suspended due to reading all of the left-wing bot attacks on any sane tweet), I decided to leave all social media for a while, which turned out to be a blessing for my sanity – or what was left of it, after the barrage of attacks and slander we all faced once the battlelines between the vaccinated and unvaccinated were drawn in 2021. I turned to Gab earlier this year, both because the woke left is blissfully absent from it and, up until recently, there were no claims that it shadowbanned or blocked any viewpoints. On Gab, I follow a few of the usual suspects (Malone, Kirsch, etc.), but also follow other people who are less political/COVID-centered, and more focused on homesteading and self-improvement. One thing that these people have encouraged me to do is to stop focusing on everything I can’t do, which in the face of so much evil and corruption can seem insurmountable at times, and to start focusing on what I can do, with the most radical of actions being to strengthen one’s body and mind to become ungovernable.
The past few years threw a lot of us into a victim mode, as we felt powerless to do anything about the spiralling insanity that surrounded us. Whether 2023 brings more of the same craziness, or moves us in a positive direction, I think it is important to try to move past the terrible wrongs that have been inflicted upon us, and to live well, despite the nefarious agendas of some. I know that most of you understand the extreme bitterness that can overtake our thoughts as we watch our friends and family members suffer collective amnesia at the horrible wounds they have inflicted upon us. It makes it even more challenging when most of these people don’t even realize the pain they have caused to the unvaccinated, and how they have broken the societal contract in a way which feels, to me, to be irreparable to a certain degree.
I have to admit that, like a lot of others, looking after my body and mind have been shuffled to the wayside since 2019, as I allowed myself to succumb to worrying about the what-ifs; what if the government starts to arrest the unvaccinated or steal our lands, what if the government force-vaccinates the unwilling, and even, what if some of my nearest and dearest are coerced into being vaccinated in order to hold onto those things they hold dear? And this, of course, brought me right back to the last time I faced blind panic, which was when I was diagnosed with cancer in 2018. Back then, the what-ifs were even scarier.
Back in 2018, I was forced to make a lot of tough decisions quickly. I was also forced to face my mortality for the first time in any meaningful way. I realized that all of those things I had been putting off, whether they were forgiving those who I felt had trespassed against me, learning how to accept the sad events in my life, or learning how to love and accept myself for who I was, and not who I thought I should be, could no longer be deferred. So, in true type-A style, I threw myself into a year of self care.
In 2019, I went to therapy, I journaled, I confronted, I made peace, I forgave and I started a daily meditation routine. For those who are interested, I highly recommend Joe Dispenza and any of his books, including: https://drjoedispenza.com/collections/books/products/becoming-supernatural-by-dr-joe-dispenza-paperback-book?variant=35489818771617 and https://drjoedispenza.com/collections/books/products/you-are-the-placebo-by-dr-joe-dispenza-paperback-book?variant=35489847181473. Dr. Dispenza also has downloadable morning and evening meditations on Spotify and iTunes that focus on visualizing one’s way to a different future. I also read up on healing cancer and healing one’s body, and cannot recommend highly enough these two resources, which explain just why modern cancer treatment is often ineffective, and how to help one’s body regenerate, whether from cancer or other cellular dysfunction: https://www.howtostarvecancer.com/product/how-to-starve-cancer-second-edition/ and https://www.chelseagreen.com/product/mitochondria-and-the-future-of-medicine/. One thing that has interested me over the past year is how similar a lot of vaccine detoxification treatments are to cancer treatment; it all goes back to our mitochondria, and supporting them in providing us with the energy we need to thrive.
This year, I am challenging myself to live by the AA motto: to have the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I will be celebrating a milestone birthday later this year, and my goal for 2023 is to prioritize my mental health and happiness, as well as run a half marathon at the same pace as I did pre-cancer, and pre-COVID-19, as a way of erasing this whole, terrible five-year adventure. Please let me know below what your self-improvement plans are for 2023, and how you are working past your anger and sadness from this whole surreal COVID-19 experience.
I wish all of you the most peaceful and joyous of years, as we forge into 2023.